What Lay Hidden that God knew But I didn’t?
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I didn’t want to admit it. We were discussing our attitudes to our family in a Bible study. We were asked to think deeply over past conversations. How did we act and react? I didn’t want to go there. I could hear my voice – my controlling voice.
It’s not nice to look back at what you said, is it? I used to be very controlling to my husband and family. It started with trauma but ended with a fear and a need to make sure everyone was safe. It had started before I really knew Jesus.
I had this urge to be watchful and careful of everyone. I didn’t trust anyone except my family.
For that reason I wanted to ensure their safety (as though I could??)
And if my way wasn’t followed then I would be very upset. I wanted everything done my way. No room for anyone else’s opinion..
So in this Bible study I made an excuse. I didn’t know. Or I lied. I am not sure.
I said that there was nothing that was wrong in my attitude with my family. Nothing. Nothing at all.
I went home. I thought and thought. I decided I had better ask Jesus if there was something that I was doing that He did not like. I prayed. I listened. God answered.
Yes there is something that you are doing. You are not trusting me. You are running afraid so you think you need to control everything.
Oh my. Convicted. Jesus was right. I saw my sin. I had also made an excuse. My sin had been hidden but now it was revealed.
Do you have hidden faults? Are you making an excuse? Do you need to talk to God about them?
I found more hidden faults as I continued in that Bible study and in the years since. And now I continue to ask God to reveal anything that is not of Him.
I don’t want to make excuses to God. I want to be righteous before HIm.
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